Change change change

Unlike yesterday when I felt so alive, connected with everything and everyone, when it seemed that the whole Universe has joined me in joy and happiness-today I felt like a deflated balloon.

And the funny thing is ("not funny ha-ha but funny"- this is from a movie, hmmm don't remember which) I saw it coming. I knew that that's the natural cycle.
Up and down and up and down.

I even thought to myself yesterday, remember this happiness and enjoy it fully but also remember that after the rain comes the Sun....and then the rain again.

For personal reasons that I don't want to get in to, the Universe was silent, cranky and numb today. Of course only because that was what my heart was feeling and what my eyes were seeing. The Sun was actually shining bright outside.

Trying to read, do work, practice the piano....futile! Iron Man was inside me saying "Nope, don't feel like it and you can't move me"

But I did. I just went out.

I called a friend and asked her if she wants to wander around town with me and she did. On my way out I took the camera with me...for no reason. I went to a cafe that I wanted to go to in ages, because I love the white embroidered lace curtains (please bare in mind just in case you think "Weird" that I'm an artists and I do tend to like silly little things).
To my surprise...they have amazing sandwiches and coffee as well. It's in the center of the city, 5 min from the main square, next to 15 other restaurants and cafes but it's not popular for some reason. So, it's not crowded. That's the second reason why I love it.

We had a very nice lunch there, took nice silly photos of the curtains and left in search of chocolate cookies. We ended up eating ice-cream...still talking silly photos.

I talked a bit about the reasons of my emotional "deflation" over lunch...but I couldn't find a trace of a negative or sad emotion anymore.

Without noticing it, I actually did what Lisa Sonora www.lisasonorabeam.com suggests in the first steps about unconventional and creative living: be a tourist in your home town! I was planning to do that for some time now, and today it happened. My friend even bought a post-card :)

What I also didn't notice is that what happened was exactly what Chris www.chrisguillebeau.com is talking about when he says that change happens when the pain of remaining in the situation becomes greater than the pain of making a change.


Change, change, change if that's what you feel is needed. And you don't need to have a plan. You'll figure it out as you're going (you might end up going to your new favorite cafe:). It doesn't have to be a life changing, figured out change.

Sometimes all you need is to feel inflated and ready to fly again... :)